Some thoughts

For those of us who have to deal with this or even infertility, i think most of us feel this way that when people say `you have only been married for a little bit give it time, or when they say to me your so young don't worry about it your time will come. Some people do not know how we feel or what we have been through. The disappointment and depression is not easy to handle. But let me tell you this that we are not given this trial unless we can handle it. We of those who have this must be very strong to take everything. This is not something that we can just forget about and never think about it. Its always in the back of our minds. It just bugs me that some people sit there and tell me that they know how i feel and that everything will work out and to leave it up to god. But they don't understand that this is a sensitive issue and that there is fear behind it. We may be afraid to go to the doctor because the last thing we want is to get a negative answer or to be told that our "disease" came back or that there is soemthing else wrong with us. Its terrifying to think that and to experience it. You cannot force us to go to the doctor when we don't feel like we are ready to handle the answer. Also its annoying when people who are healthy and didn't have any trouble getting pregant compaare themselves to you and what you are going through. I am not saying any of this to be mean i am stating i how i feel when people say these things to me. Becasue honestly it makes my blood boil and i try to stay positive but when people say things to trigger these thoughts i cannot get rid of the them because it affects me deeply. So please if you know of anyone or this is you know that there are others out there that are going through the same things you are.