11 years ago today i was sitting in a classroom next to my best friend watching the chaos unfold in the eastern United States. I am proud of all the men and women who lost their lives and those who are protecting us and fighting for us. I just wanted to share a thought with you that i had today and give you all an update. I am on fertility drugs now and my doctor and i feel great about this step its just to help it along so that i can get pregnant. I just got on some new med's today and have to be on them for five days. I feel really great about these steps i still have my days where its hard to deal with but i know that i was given this trial for a reason and i am so glad for it. I heard a thought in church and thought you know what i have not thanked the lord for this trial and so a couple days later i knelt down and thanked him and told him how grateful i am for it. I know that its hard and it will always be something that i look back on later and life and be like if i can handle that then i can handle anything. My thought that i wanted to share with you is that we can't focus on all the worldly things and such we have to let Christ be our guide. And it just clicked with me that in the past i was saying this that i will be happy when i have a baby but that us unrealistic and not trusting the lord that he knows what he is doing and will bless me with whatever my heart desires and that my time is soon. So i have decided to be happy with what i have for now and when that baby comes i will appreciate it a whole lot more than i would if i had one right at this moment. SO be happy and content with life and it will be your greatest success.