Getting bigger and bigger

Karson is getting bigger and bigger every day. He is learning to hold up his head so well and we wouldn't be suprised if he was crawling by Christmas. He is over twice his birth weight and loves to eat. We are hoping to start him on some rice cereal so that he will sleep all thorugh the night. He is such a sweetheart and loves to play on the floor. He is the best blessing of my life besides my husband. All his grandparents love him to peices and they all fight over who gets to hold him when we are all together. I am busy with school and being a mom. And my husband is busy with work. If i would have known that a year ago this month that i would find out that i was pregant with my little miracle baby boy i would say are you kidding. I still remember all those feelings of wiating and hoping. My heart goes out to all the ladies who deal with infertality. I know that it will always be a struggle in my life and i hope for all those that are dealing with it that they may come to find the strength to carry on that they never knew they had. I can tell you that its hard not to constnetally think about and be jealous and annoyed with others who are pregant. But its easy to get caught up in all those supefical thoughts we have to think of the eternal perspective and really thank the lord for this trail we have, becasue think about he must really trust us to deal with something this hard and we must be very strong women to deal with all of it. I know we all are and we all need to remember that strength comes in numbers and those who understand what we are going through

Growing bigger

Well the last few weeks have been crazy, sad, hard, and unbelievable. But there have also been happy times and special times. The first part is that my brother died in a car accident on August 19th. He was the middle brother and was always calling to check up to see how our little boy was doing. Its still hard to believe at times that he is really gone but we know that he is where he needs to be. Then my mom got put inthe hospital about a week and a half later because she was missing 4 pints of blood. Then a week later my father-in-law had to have surgery to fix three hernia's. But the good news is that our baby is growing bigger he now weighs 10 lbs and 5 oz's. He is 22 inches long and still eating like a pig. He has started to giggle and yesterday he rolled from his belly to his back several times. Its amazing becasue he is only 2 months old and he is getting better at holding his head up and cooing. He smiles all the time and is always showing us something new.

Our little miracle has been born

Well its been an eventful month since i last posted. On June 29th i went to the hospital for false labor pains. We got there at 1 and got released at 7 in the morning on Sunday. I was dialted to a 3. It was disappointing going home because i was in so much pain and they gave me some medicine to stop my labor. On July 6th i had been have labor pains all day and they kept getting worse and worse. By 10 p.m. I was again back at the hospital exactly a week after i had been there for false labor I was the dialated to a 4 and my doctor asked if i could sleep through the pain. I told him no and they broke my water and my labor began. By 2 in the morning my contractions werent consitant so they gave me pitocin and i was ready to rip my hair out the pain was so bad. This whole time my husband is sleeping and i am just writhing in pain on the hopsital bed and trying to remember to breath by 3:30 i was ready for an epidural. Then i was in heaven and was able to sleep off and on till about 7 in the morning. I was dialted to about a 7 by about 9 in the morning and then by eleven i was dialted to a 9. By noon they were saying anytime now. At around 2ish i was finally able to start pushing. My legs were so numb that they had to turn down the epidural so i could push. Karson James Hill was bron at 3:27 July 7, 2013.

16 Hours of labor later my little boy was here. But then while they were cleaning him up he was breating really fast and his stats were all over the place so ten minutes later they wisked him away to the nicu. We didn't know what was going on until about 7 that night. We were told that he had amniotic fluid on his lungs and that he would have to stay iin there for a couple of days. I juts started to cry because i had waited so long for this baby and i couldn't even hold him or take care of him. I wasn't even ablt to see him till 9 that night. I was heart broken.

When we went to see him we were told that we couldn't hold him because he was not very stable. He had oxygen and an i.v hooked up to him. Then we went back to our room. Monday we went in to see him and he had more tubes and a feeding to because they didn't want the food to get into his lungs we got to hold him that day. Tuesday i was going home but our baby wasn't. I was heart broken he hadn't improved it almost seemed as if he had gotten a little worse. He was on more oxygen and lots of i.v's and hardly eating. Wenseday he was a world of diffeernce for the better having less oxygen and sounding great. He kept improving each day and by sunday he had eaten everything on his own and had gotten all his tubes out. That monday he got to come home we were so happy and relived.

With lots of prayer and blessings he had imrpoved and had gotten better even though it felt like an eternity for me to not be able to take care of him fully and have him home with me. I know that i would never wish that upon anybody because it is heart breaking to have to go home without your baby and look at them with all these tubes in them. To wonder and worry about them when you are not there hoping the hospital doesn't call you and tell you something terrible. BUt we are so glad that he is happy and healthy and grateful to all the nurses who helped us understand what was happening and going on with our little boy. And i just want to say to all those who are dealing with infertility and those who know someone is. Please be paitient and learn to be truly happy with what you have and the Lord will bless you with your own little miracle and make you even more happy. We love being parents and even though sometimes you may be at yoru wits end with no sleep and a crying baby understand that there is nothing greater than watching that child smile at you and stare at you when you are taking care of them. He is now a month old and growing like a weed and eating like a pig.

Well its getting to the end of my pregnancy and i am miserable. Its a good miserable and totally worth it but being in pain and sick for the last nine months on and off is very taxing on your body. But i am hanging in there and trying hard to stay positive. I have a doctors appointment on Friday and hoping that the doctor will tell me that he's coming sooner than later. Anyway i will post another update after the doctor visit and baby watch is on.

Staying strong

Don't get me wrong pregnancy is the greatest thing in the world to me and i am so grateful for it. But it is hard on you emotionally, physically, and mentally. People always try to tell you ways to help you feel better but no matter what each pregnancy is different. Its not the same as your sisters or even your mom. I thought that i was gonna be sick for only a few months but is has lasted almost my whole pregnancy. I just need to get this off my chest, just because some peoples pregnancy's are easy doesn't mean that yours will be but it also means that it could be easy too. Each one of us is different and there can be many fears and apprehensions as you approach your due especially since this is our first i am experiencing some of these along with dealing with people who are not understanding how hard that this pregnancy has been on me and how difficult it has been. They don't don't seem to understand that i am not up to doing a whole lot and since we have waited for this baby for so long that it has me very anxious even though i am still about 7 weeks out. But as they say things will happen as they should and he could come early or late. But i just want you all to understand that no matter what there are people who will support you and people who will always try to put you down. You have to be strong and have the faith that everything will work out the way the lord sees fit for you to have it and in the time that he knows you will need it. Stay strong and hang in there. Also everything is looking good and i am being told to take it easy and relax if that's possible when your feeling miserable.

Happy Mothers Day

Well two years since i found out i have P.C.O.S and can't believe that i am pregnant this year i thought this would never happen. But it has and I am so grateful for my little boy growing inside of me. He is our little miracle and we are so excited to be able to welcome him to our family in July. The last few months have been a whirl wind of craziness and trying to get ready for the baby but its all worth it. I just want to wish my mom and others a happy mothers day and that we appreciate our mothers.

Update

So i just wanted to update you all and say i can't believe how far i have come and what struggles i have overcome. I was just looking at my past posts and realized that i was dealing with a lot and have grown so much from this I am 28 weeks pregnant and still doing pretty good. I am still sick every once in a while and will probably be through the rest of my pregnancy but every bit of it is worth it. He is my miracle baby boy and i will always be grateful for the things that he taught me before he came to us. He is very active and dances in my belly when there is music on. I have almost got the nursery all put together and will post pics when i finish it next week. But things are going good and i have a doctors appointment on Friday.

Life is going good

We all have our struggles in life and my finally seem to be at a stand still for a while. I just wanted to up date you all on my pregnancy and tell you that everything looks good and healthy. We are having a little boy on July 23rd. We are super excited and so happy that all of our patience has paid off. I am 20 weeks pregnant and feeling pretty good most of the time. I just want to say to all of those out there who struggle with infertility, that i know that it is hard and always little worries and struggles. But i know that letting those get you down and dwelling on the worst won't help we have to be happy with what we have and just live and enjoy what we have. I know it is easier said than done. Just don't lose hope because it is what keeps us going. Anyway back to my update. I am at home resting and taking it easy, i have been doing lots of knitting and sewing . I will not be attending school this next semester because i will be 6 months along or so and already i am not up to a whole lot. Our anniversary is also coming up and we will married for 4 years on the 21st and have been through a lot. Every bit of it was worth it to get to this point and forever. The baby is very active and i can feel it moving and kicking like crazy.

Update

Well everything is going well but i am still having morning sickness pretty often even though i am about four months along now. We go to the doctor on Tuesday for our checkup and we also might get to find out the gender of the baby. My husband is dying to know and i am just so happy to be pregnant i just want a healthy baby. I have been getting a little stressed lately because we are getting ready to move and everything is crazy we move in two weeks from today. And then we get to start putting baby stuff out. Tyler is talking about starting up school again so he can get a better job and have more steady work hours. We are doing well and will keep it posted as we find out information about the gender and what not.