growing and growing

Well its been a while since I last posted, I have been busy with school and just finished up a semester yesterday. I am trying to get back my exercising and eating healthy. I am really wanting to help people chnage their lives. Karson just turned 1 on the 7th and it made me think back to everything that lead up to getting our little miracle. Its amazing how much I have grown with everything that I went through to be able to have him. The depression, the heart break, the emotions, the hope, and the loss. Its amazing that even though I struggled with that I grew from. I wrote fairytale for my children to explain everything Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom; that was named the Kingdom of Milk and Honey. In this kingdom there lived a mom, dad, three boys and a girl. The daughter will be our main focus in this fairytale, her name is Princessa Mandy; she grew up never knowing that in the kingdom evil could ever come and live there. But one day soon after she turned 10 a new neighbor moved in his name was Lucifer, he seemed so nice at first and always seemed that he wanted to help everyone. As she grew Lucifer became different and started trying to tempt her, her friends and her family. The kingdom of Milk and Honey started to become dark and dreary. With all the tempting going on, Lucifer started recruiting the peasants in kingdom to become his partners in evil doing. Princessa Mandy was mortified by how the Kingdom of Milk and Honey was growing darker and darker each day. No matter how hard she tried to be an example her friends kept falling off the path. She was now a 19 year old young woman and would soon face the biggest conflict in her life. Princessa Mandy met her knight in shining armor one day while taking a walk in the woods. The story goes that she was looking for some berries and had gotten lost. She was terrified of the dark, her parents sent out all the knights from around the land surrounding the Kingdom of Milk and Honey. Soon Sir Knight Tyler came near where she was supposed to be he ended up tripping over a log or so he thought. He was lying on his stomach and looked back over his shoulder and realized that he actually tripped over a person, he wasn’t sure if the person was alive or dead. But he pulled himself up and decided to go check to make sure he didn’t hurt anyone. As soon as he was standing the person rolled over and said in a groggy voice, “Gosh why can’t people watch where they are walking I swear …Some people just don’t have the common curtsey.” Sir Knight Tyler was so astonished by this that he had to lean against a tree. Princessa Mandy stood up and dusted off her dress and glared at the young knight, she couldn’t help but notice how handsome he was and how she felt a connection with him as soon as their eyes met. After their meeting Sir Knight Tyler tried everything to win the Princessa’s heart, he gave her flowers and brought her a Jamba Juice when she had just got some teeth pulled from the dentist. But nothing seemed to work finally one day he was just talking to his friends about being a father in the future. Princessa Mandy heard this and her heart took a giant leap she knew that he would be the father of her children. They then began courting and a week after her 19th birthday they were married. They soon began thinking about starting their family but the timing wasn’t right, no matter how long they thought they had waited it still was not enough. Now they have this very magical gift in the Kingdom of Milk and Honey, this gift makes everything else look worthless. This magical gift had the ability to give them advice, peace, and guidance in their life and its name was the gospel. Princessa Mandy and Sir Knight Tyler began asking this wonderful gift questions and asking for guidance. They began a long struggle with Lucifer. This struggle was that they were not allowed to start having babies without the king’s permission, but they secretly kept trying and trying but each baby was lost. They finally began asking permission but were never given yes or no just peaceful thoughts. Lucifer used this to his advantage saying you’re not going to be parent s ever you will never have the opportunity to have babies. No sooner had he said these things Princessa Mandy began to doubt and lose her ability to see this wonderful gift. She began to regret those who had babies and those who were going to have babies. Lucifer kept working at her every day and trying to tempt her. She clung to Sir Knight Tyler’s ability to see the gospel. The gospel began to grow more and more in his heart and started disappearing from Princessa Mandy’s heart she could no longer see anyone’s feelings but her own. Lucifer had his grasp on her and was never going to let her go. As Princessa Mandy neared her 21st birthday she began to get sicker and sicker, being near Lucifer all the time was hurting her health. She ended up getting a syndrome that made having babies difficult and this took a big toll on her body which made her very sick. In the beginning of finding all this out the Princessa didn’t understand and so she started listening to Lucifer once again but this time it pulled her away from the family that she loved so dearly and pulled her away from her husband Lucifer tricked her into being depressed and hurt over it, he also tricked her into being jealous of others with babies. As the days went on the Kingdom of Milk and Honey got so dark that no one could see their hand in front of their face let alone the light .Everyone was turning to Lucifer following him like puppies, wanting understanding but not using the gospel. Soon Princessa Mandy had lost sight of what was really important and all that really mattered to her. This was the greatest conflict Princessa Mandy and Sir Knight Tyler faced. Sir Knight Tyler did not understand how Princessa Mandy was feeling, she felt like that if she could not have babies then what did her knight in shining armor have to stay with her for, he could find someone else that could have them. She didn’t want to feel so alone in this long conflict, but Lucifer even though she thought that he was her friend he really wasn't he put awful thoughts into her head. He made her think that the king was out to get her, and that she wasn’t worth the time and the effort, to actually be his daughter. Her family was there to support her. But she could not see any of it; she was blind to her family and the gospel. Princessa Mandy struggled with this for a very long time it went on for many years. Her family tried to stay with her but she kept pulling away until she was just a shadow in their vision. Sir Knight Tyler would never leave the Princessa’s side. He loved her dearly and no matter how much she was suffering he would hold her till she was done crying or being mad at the king. He would try to be her rock and show her that the king had not forgotten about her. He believed with all his heart that if the Princessa put her trust in the king and had a little patience her would then be given the answer that yes children will be born in their little family. One day about three years later Princessa Mandy’s heart changed, she understood why the king had her wait, and why he wanted her to wait. She found out that if she had babies before this time then they would have had major health problems or ended up coming to them dead. She understood that she needed this different view point so that she could help the Kingdom of Milk and Honey, come to see the light again. After that day Princessa Mandy and Sir Knight Tyler went around to the little towns in the kingdom telling their story trying to get people to change their lives so that they could see the magical gift, the gospel. But they could get none to listen the darkness in the Kingdom of Milk and Honey had lightened up a little bit so that you could see your hand in front of your face, but it was still dark. The princessa tried to stop Lucifer from putting doubt and bad thoughts into the peasant’s heads but nothing that she tried work soon she was so desperate that she turned to the king. He gave her the greatest advice that any king and parent could give their child. He promised her that if she taught from the heart not only by just telling her story then she would be blessed so greatly. Now a blessing this great can only be the greatest surprise of her adult life and she would appreciate it a lot more. Princessa Mandy began sharing her story with everyone that she came in contact with; she spoke from the heart and came to understand that many other people have had the same experiences and the same trials as she has had in the past three years. The Kingdom of Milk and Honey slowly started to get lighter and lighter. Soon the light started to peak through the clouds and the peasants of the kingdom began to come to use the magical gift, the gospel. The Princessa and Sir Knight Tyler so forgot all their worries and began to fight Lucifer for the rest of their kingdom. The king and queen were getting older and were ready to pass down the throne to the princessa and the knight. But first before they could gain it they had to get rid of Lucifer for good. They fought him for everything that he had gained and then some, he wasn’t going to give it up that easily. So they thought of a plan, that plan was to get the light to shine so bright that when it did he would be weakened and then they could win the kingdom back. But the problem was that they couldn’t get it to shine that bright unless the princessa was going to have a baby. Well not long after this plan had been discussed the princessa found out that she was going to have a baby. She was so surprised and excited and Sir Knight Tyler was so ecstatic that he wanted to shout it to the world. But they had to keep it quite because Lucifer would try to take the baby away from them. He knew that this was their only weakness and that this was the only way that they could get the light to be bright enough. So the princessa was taken into hiding until the baby could be born….. So late that summer a baby was born to Princessa Mandy and Sir Knight Tyler, it was a little baby boy and they named him Prince Karson James… This is just a simpler silly version of what I went through