Update and recap

Its interesting that when dealing with all my health issues, it never ceases to amaze me how much I have changed compared to 4 years ago. I so badly want to share my story with others not only on here but i want to be a motivational speaker at women's conferences and be able to help not only women but many people to change their lifestyles. Lately I have been dealing with new health issues which is my gallbladder. I ended up having surgery 2 weeks ago and am feeling better and better all the time. Its amazing to see that everything that I have went through I still have my little miracle boy. Which by the way he is doing great and getting bigger and bigger all the time, he's a typical boy and gets into everything. Just last night he got into the salt shaker and shook salt all over the floor and had a grand old time doing it. I have decided that I am going to have a party to get my name out there my husband is helping me plan it. I am excited about it and can't wait to share my story. So to refresh everyone's memory I am going to include how this journey for me began... We had been married about three months when i got pregnant and then miscarried that same month. I was on birth control at the time so I thought that it was the birth control that made me miscarry. My heart was broken and I was depressed, I was so hurt that nobody knew how I felt and so I turned my mind around right then and decided that I wasn't going to let this get the best of me. We then moved closer to both of our families a few months later. As we were living in a big house with some friends, they found out that they were pregant which made me a little jelaous but more hurt then that. Because i wanted kids so bad but i couldn't seem to get pregnant. By this time we had been married for about 8 months. My heart was breaking and so I talked to an in-law. The in-law that I talked to did not understand what i was going through becasue they were always able to get pregnant right away. They said that the pregnancy about four months earlier was all in my head. This blew me away that they could be so heart less at how i was feeling and how i was struggling with this. We then decided that we needed to move once again becasue being with our friends was making our marriage fall apart. Soon after we got into our new place, i started feeling like i was pregnant again. So we took test after test and again it seemed as if i miscarried. I finally decided that my heart couldn't take all this so i just wanted to stop trying. It was hard for me to not be jelaous as thers got pregnant and i couldn't. I struggled almost everyday with it and i began to get depressed. Finally i sat down with my husband and i told him how i was feeling. He told me that he would support me and that we would have our own children one day soon. After about a year in our new place we decided that we would start trying again. This brings us to January of 2011. In the first part of January i began to get really sick. At frist i was like oh its just the flu and then i got better so i didn't think anything of it. In late march I started to get sick again and this time i was late. So we took a test and it came out negative. I tried not to think about it but i made be a little depressed. We then went on vacation in early April and i didn't think about until we came home and i got sicker and sicker. Finally my family said that i had better go to the doctor to find out what was wrong. I was scared and anxious becasue i wanted a positive answer but i also didn't want to be disappointed. The doctor then took a test and it said it was negative. This tore at my heart becasue i wanted so badly to know that i was gonna have a baby. The doctor then took a bunch of tests to narrow down the problem. After two more doctor visits of test, the doctor said ok lets take a pelvic ultrasound becasue we are running out of tests and problems that could be worng with you. Later that day i went and got an ultrasound. I waited anxiously to hear what they had to say. Finally that Friday the doctor called with news. It wasn't terrible but it wasn't good either. He told me that i had poly cystic ovaries and that this was caused by to much insulin in my body, he also told me it was treatable. He scheduled me for a an insluin test the following Monday. Later that day i told my mother and i broke down in tears but at frist i didn't know excatly what i was facing and what my treatment would be. I was afraid that i would never be able to have children and just all those kinds of thoughts were running through my head. I was afraid that my husband would not want to be married to me anymore and that was one of my biggest fears that weekend. I was kinda depressed and kinda worried about how Monday was gonna go. This was also mothers day weeken, so for me this was a very hard day. We then went in on MOnday and they took the test and they told me that the results would be ready in a couple of days and the doctor explained to me that my cystics were folical size and that as soon as that got it under control that i would be able to have children. This helped me calm down a little. SO I know this blog post was a little longer than others but what I want to do is be able to share this story but shorten it and be able to share it that way.