So new developments in my struggles. I ended up going to the doctor because i haven't been feeling well for about 3 months. My doctor said that my p.c.o.s has had a flare up again and my body has not ovulated in quite a while. So that is what my whole problem has been. So they have upped my medicine and are trying a new medicine to jump start my ovaries into ovulation. He was really positive and wants me to stay positive. He says that i could get pregnant in September if it works. Its amazing that even though I thought I was better. I knew that it had come back and made it so my children can't come to me yet. But i know that this is the Lord's path and everything will work out the way it is supposed to. I don't want to offend anyone but i have had something on my mind for a while and i just want to say it, its to no one specific but its to have my own peace of mind. Sometimes the trials in our path are put there for our own benefit and we may not truly understand it but its there. We just have to learn to accept them. It may be as simple as becoming depressed or it may be something as complicated as losing a child. But we have to love the things we have and love the reasons why we have those things to deal with. The Lord knows what we can and can't handle so we just have to trust him. I also want to share a good thought for everyone it is a parable about preparing the fields for rain. These two farmers were going through a terrible drought and the one farmer was praying and preparing his fields for the rain but the other farmer was just praying and not doing the preparing of his fields. Who do you think had the most faith? The one who was preparing, right? Because he had the faith that the rain would come. So i compare that to my life and my struggle i have to prepare my body to have a baby not just mentally but physically. We have to prepare and keep the faith. I want you all to be positive because it really does help with the situation.