SO proud of myself

SO i took a big step today, I feel happy for my brother and his wife for having another baby. I just didnt understand the way i was feeling. After many talks and many blessings. I finally understand why god wants me to wait for a baby for just a little bit longer. I have to be paitent and focus on other things and before i know it i will be pregnant myself. I went and talked to my sister-in-law and expalined to her that i want to be like the godmother. I want to know everything first and help with everything. I know that if i focus on others then i will be blessed with the desires of my heart. God knows when the time is right for us to have things and i need to trust in that and have faith that god knows what he is doing. I do know that i will have children soon and that god understands and hears my prayers. And that he wants whats best for us even though we may not think that they way things are being handled in our minds is the right way. Also i think what helped me the most was when my sister-in-law showed me compassion and understanding. Thats what i needed yesterday but i wasnt getting it and i think thats part of the reason i was feeling the way that i was feeling. But i am happier and cant wait to be involved in everything. :)